I have been discouraged and second-guessing myself on taking over WOTC. The reason I went into debt and did it was for you our faithful readers and followers. I told Lady Abyss when she offered me this website that yes I would take it so the site stayed “in the family” instead of going to a stranger who would more than likely make big changes to the content of the information we send to your inboxes daily. Then after talking with her last week and some of the emails, I have received I am wondering if I did the right thing not only for you but for myself too. So Lady A and I talked and talked again and she convinced me of what I already knew in my heart but did not want to listen to… if I was not meant to have this website it would not have been offered to me to pay for making payments rather then one lump sum, if I was not supposed to have this website there is no way Lady Abyss would offer her years of sweat and tears and laughs to me. So with all of this in mind it got me to thinking of a Christian poem that I had changed to be a Pagan poem years ago and I would like to share it with you and remind all of us the Great Mother and Great Father plus our Spirit Guides do listen when we speak to them or ask them about something. We might not get the answer we want or in the time frame we want it in but an answer will come one way or another when we are supposed to know the answer or have whatever happen in our lives. When I woke up at 3:30 this morning it was to my mom’s voice telling me to read this poem and it would just take a little while for you all to get used to my posting style and for me to get used to what you want to see every day and what you would like once in a while and everything in between. So I know I have asked before but I Will ask again please have some patience with me I will get up the Moon phase, Current Planetary Positions, and different horoscopes daily. As for the Tarot readings, Ogham readings, spells, recipes, jokes, daily spirit animal, etc, I will be adding them slowly as I get the hang of doing this. I will never be and have no desire to be Lady of the Abyss and because of this, I do not put up posts like she did. I am Lady Beltane and do things my way. So I hope we can reach a compromise so when I come on in the mornings to post I am not shaking (it is not from caffeine as I do everything herbal or decaf) as I literally have been every single day since I took over WOTC because I am so afraid of doing something or saying something wrong and you all leaving to read other sites and leave me knowing I killed Lady A’s website she works so hard on for so many years. Will you please stick around, give me a chance and help me know when I am doing something really wrong, please?
The poem I changed is named “Footprints in the Sand” this poem is very personal to me as it was mother’s favorite in any version and so I share this treasure of my heart with you as my sisters and brothers in spirit. Namaste
Footprints in the Sand
One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking the beach with our Goddess.
Across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand.
One belonging to me and one belonging to our Goddess.
After the last scene of my life flashed before me.
I looked back at the footprints in the sand ‘
I noticed that at many times along the path of my life, especially at the very lowest and saddest times, there was only one set of footprints.
This really troubled me. so I asked our Goddess about it.
“Goddess you said you would all be with me, you would walk my lifetimes with me if I asked. But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life there was only one set of footprints. I don’t understand why when I needed your counsel the most you would not be here”
She whispered, “My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever, during each of your lifetimes will I leave your side, unless you push me away. When you saw only one set of footprints in the sand is when I carried you through your dark, rough times.”